WOW!!!  I don’t know about you, but to me it feels like our calls get more powerful each time we get together!  April had 5 Wednesdays so 3 weeks went by before our first call of the month of May, and I was soooo looking forward to connecting with you all.  I got so many downloads of potential Guided Meditations that I literally have about 4 months worth of content to share with you… and I know that I’ll download more by next month so what am I to do with all these goodies?  I’ll post some as Youtube videos, but honestly, I think I might need to consider building a sort of online course with a dozen 45 minute Guided Meditations in it to get them out of my inspired mind and into an audio format that can be shared with more people… ♥

Ok enough about my inner floodgates of inspired channelings! We started off the call by taking the time to chat about what’s going on in our lives and what’s coming up to our awareness. One participant mentioned getting push backs from doing a  lot of clearing work, another talked about exploring shadow work and what that brings up, and another shared how frustrating it is to feel that the process of healing our core wounds is multilayered and sometimes feels like it will never end.  We tend to want to ‘be done and rid of’ these wounds that come back, over and over again, to be faced and embraced at deeper levels each time. I mentioned the planet Chiron, a planet that takes over 50 years to do one cycle around our Sun, which astrologically represents a core and overarching theme we are working on throughout this incarnation (often representative of a ‘character structure’ of our Soul that we are playing out and exploring in various facets throughout multiple incarnations).  The ‘mantra’ of Chiron is : ‘New Level, Same Devil’. That pretty much says it all. 😉 ♥

Another way of looking at our (ego’s) reaction to recurring themes of healing in our lives –  a reaction that sounds something like ‘Didn’t I heal this already?  Why the hell do I have to deal with this again?’ is to work with the metaphor of an onion with its many layers, which most of us have already heard of, but to add to it the understanding that at the center of that onion is a massive core wound that is shooting out a beam through all these layers. Every time you shed a layer, you touch upon a deeper part of that ‘beam’ and you get closer to the core wound. Most of us are on a quest to heal that is first and foremost fueled by our ego – the part of us that wants to ‘get rid of the pain’ and will keep going until it ‘succeeds’. But we can’t get all the way to the core wound through ego cause at a certain point it dawns on it that to fully get rid of that pain is to undo its own foundation. Basically its a process and it unfolds in layers, as it should and needs to be, so we can progressively get closer to that core wound and domesticate the deep terror we unconsciously hold toward feeling it, like it would pulverize us – which, at the purely egoic level, it does. So…   as much as our ego would want to ‘get it over with already’, you can’t just will yourself to go into your core wound and ‘get rid of it by feeling it already’.  Such wounds are so deep that they constitute the fiber that holds you egoic identity together, so stop being impatient and wanting it be ‘over already’!  Enjoy the journey of progressively ‘moving beyond’ your ego by waking up in the dream! This is such a nice paradox to contemplate: the part of you fueling you into waking up is the part that will cease to exist once you do.  At a certain point something else in you needs to take over, what we call the Soul, which is your much broader and bigger awareness, a conscious being that seeks to inhabit the body you are wearing and get to experience matter through it. This is the part of you that will play in the Dream once your eyes are wide open. Understand that it can never be both at the same time, either your ego or your Soul get to look through your eyes, hear through your ears, feel through your senses, etc.   Interestingly enough though, you can cultivate this awareness even while it is still ego in the driver’s seat, and that is exactly what we are doing in this group, during these calls.  ♥

Once we were done chatting, we started getting out of the small space our ego lives in – the head – by using our exhales as a way to go down into the body – one inch at a time – and our inhales as a way to inhabit and expand the space we had brought our awareness into. We took our time with this and really allowed our Soul to get to feel what it’s like to be in a body by owning the spaces we were in, one breath at a time. Once we were all the way down to the feet, I started talking about the Toroidal Field that we share with the Earth, an energy shape that looks like a donut (look at a picture of the geomagnetic field of the Earth and you’ll see what I mean) and whose movement goes up through the central line (the geomagnetic North and South poles) then back down the sides and back into the bottom of the central line and on and on. The Earth has a Torroidal Field, and we too have one. Actually we both have more than one: there is a big once that surrounds us, and a smaller one around our Sacred Heart Space as well as Gaia’s Sacred Heart deep in the Core of the Earth.  We played with this for a while, synchronizing our Torroidal Field with Gaia’s, by inhaling from the Core of the Earth up into the Heart, then exhaling from the Heart up through the Crown and letting it go up into the Universe to then fall back down our sides and get swept back into our base, in a never ending movement. ♥

I talked a bit about how manifestation truly happens. We like to say ‘the Universe provides’ but in Truth, its actually the Earth that provides.  The dynamic goes something like this : we bring in Earth energy, we emit an intention with our Hearts (the most powerful part of our Being) and then, YES, we send it ‘up’ into the Universe, BUT, we then bring it back down to Earth and let it seep into her so SHE can provide the resources, circumstances, exchanges, etc that will help make manifest that intention/wish/desire we emitted from our Heart. As we were practicing this and getting more synchronized with the larger Toroidal Field of Gaia, I started weaving into our Guided Meditation the image of our entire body being like a Galaxy full of stars, and introduced a method learnt from a long standing (now retired) mentor of mine called ‘Xmas Tree Lights‘. We used this method in conjunction with the movement of the Toroidal Field and the idea of a ‘Black Hole of Love’ at the center of our Sacred Heart’s Toroidal Field so that whatever would get light up by the’ Xmas Tree Lights’  would simply, naturally, effortlessly and softly get ‘sucked into’ the base of the Toroidal Field and brought deeply into the Sacred Heart Space to be lovingly embraced and reintegrated and recirculated into your Being, into our Inner Galaxy.

The only way you can fully face and embrace, feel and release, dissolve and transmute anything and everything is to bring it into and through your Sacred Heart Space, that contains an Oscillator that is more powerful than your head or your body will ever be.  If you can learn this through my teachings and become a living example of embodying this deepest truth, I will consider my Soul Purpose on this Earth fulfilled and my Spirit will rest in the Deep Peace of God. ♥

Wow, I’m going deep…   Nothing moves me more than this work, there is nothing I wish to contribute more and nothing is as fun for me to be doing in this incarnation than this work.  I feel so blessed that I get to share this Divine Intention with you all and I am so deeply grateful that you are here with me doing this work! Thank you so much for BEING YOU and for BEING US!!! ♥

OK. Back to what I’m supposed to be doing, a summary (lol, it’s becoming a book) of our call last night.  The statement we use for ‘Xmas Tree Lights is as follows : ‘Light up in me anything that interferes with my ability to know, live and experience (whatever you want to put here, for example: my inherent worth, my self-love, my status as a child of God, my inherent goodness, the deep peace I am made of, the Love I Am, etc etc)’. You then let the areas in your body light up where you hold those patterns (in our case we imagined it as stars in our Inner Galaxy), and then you make use of your FREE WILL by stating : I see these Lights in me and choose to (many examples of formulations : bring them back into my Sacred Heart NOW/release them or transmute them NOW/integrate, love and heal them NOW/etc) wherever and whenever they are, through time and across time’  (for short you can just say ‘RECURSIVELY’, which means something like from this present emanation all the way back to its origin and all the way through the thread of its existence).   ♥

We played with this process for a while and then worked on just feeling the Toroidal movement without trying to ‘control’ it, just being with it and feeling it happen on its own, feeling all the space in us, being the loving observer of it all without seeking to do anything. We even explored how it felt to imagine every single cell of our body with its own Torroidal field. So much movement yet so much stillness. Beautiful paradox!! Yum!!! I then sang a ceremonial song called ‘FLY LIKE AN EAGLE’ so we could all just experience how awesome it is to just BE the pure Presence witnessing all of this beautiful movement in us, giving our Soul a chance to BE the ONE experiencing the body and its Inner Galaxy.  WOW!!! ♥

It was then already time to end the call but I wanted to introduce you to an awesome place in the Soul Landscape : The Crystal Cave.  This also allowed me to give you a new way to check when you enter the Landscape that you are on the ‘right side’ of the River : there is a Waterfall higher up in your River flows in front of the Tree.  When I visualize my Soul Landscape before entering it, I always take a large enough view of it that I can see that Waterfall as well, so I always know I’ve landed on the ‘right side’. By the way landing on the other side just means you are at your Discernment Tree instead of your Soul Tree, its smaller and has a more limited-range of awareness.  While I’m at it, here is another by the way: when you go swim in your River to energize yourself (something you should do every single time you go in the Soul Landscape, whether to do a journey of just hang out with your Tree), go put yourself under the Waterfall and let it flow through you. It is very energizing to do this and can help move stagnant energies in you faster than just soaking in the River. ♥

To access the Crystal Cave, you swim up the river to the Waterfall and go behind it. You will be in front of a big rock surface. There is no door to access this cave. Nothing other than you can enter this space. You do so simply by walking right through the rock that can only be passed through by your unique Soul Signature energy.  Once you enter this Crystal Cave, find the rock in the middle of the cave that offers you a place to sit, and here – just like is the case with the Window of the Universe – you put yourself in a state of receiving. You are not here to ‘pull’ energy out of the crystals, you are here to be receptive and allow their energy to come to you. Crystals are very intelligent life forms and they know what your Crystalline Body needs.  Your role here is to sit, be present and receptive, and allow the rays of whichever of the Crystals that want to come work on you enter your body wherever they need to.  Every single crystal you can imagine is in here, and these crystals, as I said, are very intelligent. Sometimes they will give you messages or advice or inform you of things you need to work on in yourself, and might even tell you to go get a physical version of them and how to use it on yourself. Generally you stay sitting here until the rays of the crystals in the cave stop beaming upon you. There is also a mineral-rich Pond of Water in this cave, that you can drink from, that will help to restore your mineral balance at an energetic level.  You can either just cup your hands or imagine a crystal glass, or even a straw.♥

This is a very Sacred Space and it is yours and yours alone. Come here whenever you need to, it is very nurturing place to put yourself in. Remember that your body is made up of minerals and crystals at its base, to which the more organic and vitamin-rich materials are then added. To come here and be fed by this space is to literally restore the building blocks of your body. ♥

PLEASE SHARE YOUR EXPERIENCES OF OUR WONDERFUL CALL!!!  I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!  CAN’T WAIT TO READ YOUR COMMENTS!!! ♥